I miss you. We've been apart for over three weeks now. My heart, my soul, my head, and my taste buds miss you terribly. The rest of my body; however, is celebrating our break. I know it must hurt your feelings when I walk into Starbuck's and order a decaf. It is hard on me too. I always appreciated and valued our relationship. In the past three weeks though, my familial tremor in my right hand has essentially gone away, and my restless leg syndrome is significantly better. I can usually watch TV in the evenings now without doing leg lifts or pacing. I can even go to sleep most nights without a hot bath to calm my legs. As much as I miss you, being able to sleep feels like a luxury. When you and I were together, going to bed was a frustrating, sometimes painful experience, and it was anything but restful. The separation is tough, but hopefully you can understand my need to stay away. We'll both adjust, right?
My biggest struggle right now is dealing with meals that just beg for a caffeinated beverage. How do people enjoy pizza, or a burger, or Mexican food without you? A margarita is certainly an acceptable option with Mexican food at dinner time, but what about a taco lunch during the work day? Water won't do. Sprite tastes awful. Enchiladas deserve a Pepsi. A burger needs a Dr. Pepper. Pizza just isn't the same without a Coke. Don't even get me started on baseball without Cheerwine. If I give up you, do I have to give up burgers, pizza, Mexican food, and baseball too? I'm not ready for that. One break-up is hard enough. I may have to resort to carrying around Crystal Light packets everywhere I go. It isn't you, and will never live up to the high standards you've set, but it might suffice for something sweet.
You've been such a faithful companion to me over the years... in a steaming mug of coffee in the mornings, in a soda to perk me up in the afternoon, and always nearby at movies, sporting events, and picnics. I miss you. Change is hard, but I have to weigh the good with the bad and find a way to move forward. You will too.